I have been in such a rut and a depression slump lately. But, there have been so many positive things that have been going on in my life as of lately. After the whole Matt situation, I got some great news.
I was currently at Horry Georgetown Technical College because I just wasn’t sure what I wanted to do with my life. I am such a crazy, all over the place kind of person, and I always want to do everything. I have so many lists of things that I want to accomplish and try my hand at. Recently, I have been accepted into Coastal Carolina University to major in Music. This is my fall back.
I have always been a musical person. I started playing the piano when I was four, the violin when I was 11, and I have sang all my life. So, naturally, I wanted my life career to have something to do with music. As I got older, my interest in fashion sky rocketed. I’m not talking about every girls obsession with ‘shopping’. I am talking about, I studied fashion. I studied designers. I studied their biographies. I studied colours. I religiously watched the Style network and jotted down ideas and sketches of things that I wanted to one day create. When I was a freshman in high school, while every girl I knew was wearing A&F, Hollister, and American Eagle, I was wearing vintage 70’s things that I could plunder through and find at thrift stores, and I would save up my money to buy Heatherette pieces, and I would keep up with Betsey Johnson. My fashion icon in high school was Cher, Sienna Miller, and Twiggy. I mean, seriously? I stuck out like a sore thumb at all times. I wore the riskiest things to school and was made fun of all the time for what I wore, because it was ‘high fashion’ and out of the box. While everyone was wearing jeans and tshirts, I was wearing Banana Republic oversized sweaters over leggings with knee high boots. I would get made fun of all the time and I would overhear girls making fun of me. Two years later, when Jessica Simpson did the whole “Daisy Dukes” Dukes of Hazzards things, every girl in school was wearing boots. Funny how that happens? The walls in my closet at my parents house were covered in clippings of magazine editorials that I had torn out and taped them on the walls to give me inspiration. I constantly wore heels to high school. I would have friends constantly have me give them lessons on how to walk in heels. And I would wake up on numerous mornings with pictures of my friends outfits asking if it was okay.
Even my sister, who is six years older then me calls me to this day for advice on what to wear.
I have always had my own style but I am so dedicated to high fashion.
I have worked at Kenneth Cole for two years this coming September and my manager and I were talking during one of my reviews. She told me that she could totally see me in the corporate office in NYC working with them for visual merchandising and that that is where I needed to be. I was offered the chance at an internship in NYC for next fall of 2013. Needless to say, I am working three jobs to save up to go. And my parents are supporting me to go. I am so excited and I know that this is my chance to shine and my chance to live my long dream of being in the fashion industry.
I have worked so hard at everything. And I should never let this 25 year old or any man in that case make me feel so unworthy, when I have more to show for my life then they can when they are five to six years older then I am.
I will make it. I will shine. And I will succeed.
tagged as: positive. school. NYC. New York City. Kenneth Cole. excited.
posted on May 23, 2012